sitting in the promise

This past Saturday, I was given the opportunity to share God’s Word.

If I am being honest, this is one of the very things I once told God I would never do.

Over a year ago, He showed me a glimpse of His plans for my life. I saw myself speaking at a women’s conference, confident, engaging, full of life. And I remember thinking, That cannot be God. That version of me felt unfamiliar. I have never considered myself a public speaker. I stutter when I am nervous. Standing in front of a crowd has always terrified me. So I told the Lord plainly, If this is You, I need You to get somebody else.

That same day, I opened my Bible, and it fell open to the story of Moses in Exodus.

Moses had the same fears and the same objections. He said to the Lord, “Oh my Lord, I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue” (Exodus 4:10). And just like He did with Moses, God gave me the same answer: “But I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall speak” (Exodus 4:12). Still, I quietly set that plan to the side. I decided I would just focus on getting closer to God, hoping, if I am honest, that He might change His mind if I stayed faithful everywhere else. And for a while, it seemed like He had.

I started W3, just like He said.

I went back to school, just like He said.

I got a mentor, just like He said.

I accepted the call to ministry and eventually preaching, just like He said.

But in my mind, preaching did not mean now. I imagined leading Bible studies, serving in discipleship, or working within women’s ministry. I thought speaking publicly was something far off, years away.

Then in November, the Lord told me to make room for ministry in 2026. By then, I had learned that delayed obedience only makes things harder, so I adjusted my schedule immediately. That very same day, I was asked to speak in January on being called to more. The event was everything it needed to be. The Lord met every woman in that room right where she was. Scripture says, “Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom” (2 Corinthians 3:17), and His presence was undeniable. For that, I am profoundly grateful. To God be all the glory.

That Sunday morning, I woke up emotional, overwhelmed, and grateful. After everything I had done and all my resistance, God still saw fit to use me. Someone said to me, “You are today who you have always been.” And it clicked. God had not suddenly decided anything new. He had been positioning me all along. Fear and past experiences simply kept me from naming it. Scripture says, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you” (Jeremiah 1:5).

I cried that entire day. Every time I thought about how far God had brought me, all I could say was thank You. I began looking back over the last year and saw His hand everywhere. The way He had shown me what He desired for my life. The way He aligned every piece. The way He protected promises even when I did not. “The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when he delights in his way” (Psalm 37:23).

Hindsight truly is twenty-twenty.

And I realized I am sitting in the middle of things He promised me. Not everything has come to pass yet. But I know it will. Scripture reminds us, “God is not a man, that He should lie, nor a son of man, that He should change His mind. Has He said, and will He not do it?” (Numbers 23:19). He does not speak without acting. He does not promise without fulfilling. This year has not been easy. It stretched me beyond what I thought I could bear. It challenged me mentally, physically, and spiritually. Some parts of me were crushed, and others rebuilt. Yet God was faithful. “Though He slay me, I will hope in Him” (Job 13:15). It softened me, strengthened me, and anchored me in an unshakable faith. “Suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope” (Romans 5:3–4).

It has been the hardest and most spiritually rewarding year of my life.

So as I sit in the promise, as I watch His hand move, as I see the pieces falling into place, Lord, thank You. For being all things in all things.

Scripture says, “The Lord will perfect that which concerns me; Your mercy, O Lord, endures forever; do not forsake the work of Your hands” (Psalm 138:8). And I know, with every atom in my body, that this is irrevocably true.

So my sisters, as we step into this year, I encourage you to meditate on that truth. “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit” (Psalm 34:18). Your tears matter to Him. Your heart matters to Him. You matter to Him. And He will see to it that His purpose for your life is fulfilled. “He who calls you is faithful; He will surely do it” (1 Thessalonians 5:24).

Sit in the promise, my sister.

And let our Father work.